It’s 4:49 am and I had no sleep, my dog had epileptic seizures several times since yesterday evening and the vet said he will only get worse.
I’m so scared, I can’t think that this is going to be the last night I’ll spend with him, the vet said that he could live even for months like this but seriously? I don’t want him to suffer this much, it’s a pain and I think I’ll talk to my mother when she wakes up, in two hours and probably we’ll put him to sleep today.
I don’t want to, he’s the best thing that ever happened to me, we grew up together and I love him so much and it kills me to see him being so sick.
I cried all night long and I feel so alone and lost, I prayed for him to die in his sleep, when he finally slept an hour ago and I feel so bad about it.
I don’t know what to do. Sorry about this, I just needed to vent and to put my thoughts into words.